Happy New Year! I realize I'm more than three weeks late, but my hands have been really full since January 1. Actually, the last four months have been overwhelming. Life got really hard really fast after I returned from my amazing two-week vacation traveling around Spain in October.
I made the hard decision to close down my yoga studio--Serenity Place DC. Our monthly income wasn't enough to meet our expenses. I had two choices: invest thousands of dollars to keep it going, or shut it down and regroup. I chose the latter. Our last class was December 15, and then I said farewell at our annual holiday party the next evening.
I have been troubled by insomnia since I landed in Spain on October 7. I'm rarely tired when my former 10pm bedtime rolls around. Once I do get in bed, I lie awake for a long time before drifting off to a light sleep, so light that I wake up every few hours. On the good nights, I can fall back asleep. On the bad ones, I am up until morning. I'm learning how crucial good sleep is to one's physical and mental health. The lack of it can be equally damaging.
My seasonal depression has been its worst since I was first diagnosed ten years ago. For much of the fall and winter, I have been sad, lethargic, and unmotivated. I had little hope or interest in my usual, everyday activities like exercise, yoga, or writing this blog. My appetite also disappeared, and I quickly lost 20 pounds. My doctor and I struggled to figure out the right treatment.
While I was dealing with all this stuff, I had no desire to connect with the world or share my story. I couldn't even begin to think about finding the words to communicate my agony. Eventually, we figured out the right treatment plan, my sleep and depression improved, and I started to gain perspective on the reasons the studio wasn't a bigger success. That's the stuff I likely will share in the weeks and months ahead. In the meantime, it's good to be back!
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.