I could do anything ... If I only knew what it was. The title of a career book by Barbara Sher, this phrase also was the story of my life for much of my twenties. I tried a bunch of different jobs and pursued a couple different careers, but none of them fit. Nothing felt right.
Each time I came to that conclusion, I did the same thing: I would begin the search anew for that dream job--the one that would make me happy. In the ten years after I graduated college, I had seven different jobs! I was just starting number eight when I came across Sher's book. In it, she explained why some people have a hard time settling down in a career.
Some people, like me, naturally have lots of interests. There isn't just one job that we are meant to do. We won't be satisfied unless we are able to engage our multiple interests and passions.
But often there are deeper psychological reasons why one isn't pursuing the things that would be satisfying professionally--such as fear of the unknown or a desire to make others happy. These were as much a part of my story as being a skimmer (one who skims the surface of a lot of things). I spent several months reading through Sher's book and thinking about my next steps professionally. I'm sure it's no coincidence that the longest I was able to stick with a job occurred during that time. This period also was when I began taking studio yoga classes, enjoying the benefits of a deeper practice.
Almost a decade later, I'm very clear about my career goals. The various ways to practice yoga--meditation, asana, self study, reflection--have revealed my gifts and talents. I have passions that invigorate me and knowledge that I am able to share with others. I know my future involves yoga teaching and offering workshops to help others transform their lives. It also includes providing career exploration assistance. I know that I am a great public speaker and enjoy sharing my life's journey--both the struggles and successes.
For me, the biggest obstacle that prevented me for seeing this earlier were my expectations. I thought I needed a full-time job with health benefits, retirement, and security to make me happy. But I was wrong. I need faith in myself and my God. With those, I can walk out into the unknown and pursue my unique calling. Now, I can do anything, because I have figured out what it is.
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.