I started this blog three years ago as Crystal’s Wellness Quest. During that first year, I wrote a series of posts about Letting Go (Expectations, Anger, Control, Being Right, Suffering, Envy, Fear, Relationships, Blame, Doubt, Regret, Perfection, Depression, and Shame). For the first time in my life, I talked openly about being sexually abused as a child and my adult battles with depression. The years of hard work with my therapist had been paying dividends, and I wanted to share what I had learned with others. I think writing about the hard times helped with my healing. I probably benefited more than any of my readers.
It has been a hot and humid July in the Nation's capital, and we just had a weeklong heat wave. It was 90 degrees (and above) with 90% humidity every day for over a week. Although the air conditioning is working again in my apartment, I have been miserable. It's so hot and sticky when you walk outside, that you feel like you're in a shower. I decided I needed a break, and convinced a friend to head with me to the ocean. I am so grateful for the wonderful Sunday afternoon that I spent in Ocean City, MD. Here are the other blessings I am celebrating this week:
Earlier this week, I saw a Facebook post from one of my favorite authors. She talked about the fact that she hasn't been in much of a writing mood. She has been on tour with her latest book, moving in with her boyfriend, renovating an old house, and taking care of her family. Life has filled her time so much that there hasn't been much space for writing. So, she is taking a break and will come back when she's ready. I can relate to her feelings, except I have much more self-doubt: What if I never come back to my writing? What if I never again feel settled? What if my new grad student life crowds out all the creative space?
I got married 14 years ago on June 28, 2003. It has been so long, and my life has changed so much, that it is hard sometimes to believe that my wedding day actually happened. A few wedding photos remain, as well as my new last name, as evidence that I did in fact say, “I do.” That moment marked the beginning of my transformation journey.
It has been three weeks since I last posted to this blog—almost a month since I had an hour’s time to reflect on life and the lessons it has been offering me, and share them with the rest of you. It isn’t that I haven’t been getting my lessons. Trust me, they have been coming. I just have been so swamped with life and doing my best to keep my head above water in the process of living that there wasn’t much time to compose my reflections and put them online. Albeit, a bit belated, here is what I have learned in the last month or so:
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.