I started this blog three years ago as Crystal’s Wellness Quest. During that first year, I wrote a series of posts about Letting Go (Expectations, Anger, Control, Being Right, Suffering, Envy, Fear, Relationships, Blame, Doubt, Regret, Perfection, Depression, and Shame). For the first time in my life, I talked openly about being sexually abused as a child and my adult battles with depression. The years of hard work with my therapist had been paying dividends, and I wanted to share what I had learned with others. I think writing about the hard times helped with my healing. I probably benefited more than any of my readers.
It has been three weeks since I last posted to this blog—almost a month since I had an hour’s time to reflect on life and the lessons it has been offering me, and share them with the rest of you. It isn’t that I haven’t been getting my lessons. Trust me, they have been coming. I just have been so swamped with life and doing my best to keep my head above water in the process of living that there wasn’t much time to compose my reflections and put them online. Albeit, a bit belated, here is what I have learned in the last month or so:
As overwhelmed as I feel about all that is involved with my upcoming move to California and transition to full-time graduate student, I also am incredibly grateful. The details have been working themselves out in amazing and utterly fortuitous ways. Each one of these instances of synchronicity has brought a smile to my face over the last few months, and reminded me that all is well.
I was raised in a single, female-headed household. My mom worked hard to provide everything my older sister and I needed. She ensured that we got the best educations she could afford, and there was always enough money for a few books to add to my ever-growing collection. I had new school clothes each fall and plenty to eat for each meal. My clothes weren’t fancy, and my sister and I shared a bedroom in the Bronx. So I was far from spoiled, but I never went without.
I have been fortunate to spend time at several retreat centers, including Omega and Yogaville. Over the years, I have heard many wonderful things about Kripalu, located in Massachusetts' Berkshire Mountains. I added a trip to Kripalu to my DC Bucket List, and was able to cross it off this past weekend. For some reason, I didn't really tell anyone that I was going--that I was getting away for four days. I drove up to Baltimore after teaching my Thursday Lunch Recharge class and boarded a flight to Albany. I rented a car and made the 50-mile, 60-minute drive to the Kripalu campus. This week, I am celebrating the gifts of peace, quiet, and retreat that I afforded myself over the weekend.
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.