Here are the things I am celebrating as the month of October draws to a close:
I open my mouth wide, and a deep rush of air pours forth, emitting sound as it is released. I am so tired. I just spent the day in my schools. Or I sat at my computer for a few hours working. Or I went to the gym to do a bit of cardio and strength training. Unless I am lying on my couch with a book or the remote in hand, any activity wears me out. This is a pernicious side effect of lupus.
We have been enjoying an Indian Summer in the Nation's Capital for the last few days. Just when I thought fall was here for good, and had turned on the heat, we were blessed with a week of sunny and warm, 80-degree temperatures. I took advantage of the time to bike to my yoga class and spend as much time outdoors as possible. I am grateful for this small weather respite as well as many other things:
Many years ago, my pastor preached a sermon about Indiana Jones. He recounted a scene from one of the film’s action sequences. Jones was on a quest for something really important (don’t ask me what). In his search, he came upon the ledge of a mountain. Across a wide and deep cavern sat the very thing he had been seeking, that he had endured hardships and enemies to locate. But there was no way to bridge the divide. Jones was frustrated. He was so close to the object of his desire, yet so far away.
It's midway through the month of October, and my mood hasn't begun to deteriorate into its usual fall doldrums. I'm hoping some of the credit goes to my sunlamp, which I have been using faithfully since the fall equinox a few weeks ago. I'm also hoping out of bed, and heading straight to my yoga mat for a short and simple practice that energizes. I'm feeling really good. Dare I hope that this year will be different from the rest? No matter what, I am grateful for my good mood, as well as these other things this week:
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.