I began this journey of letting go three months ago by publishing a post on expectations. After I received so much positive feedback (internally and externally), I decided to create a series. My goal was to highlight all the ways my life has changed, especially in the last ten years. It’s easy to look at the before-and-after. Instead, I wanted to investigate the journey and explore all the little shifts and changes that led to the bigger turnaround.
I nearly dropped out of college during the fall of my sophomore year. I wasn’t enjoying my classes, and had little motivation to attend lectures or do the work. I dropped my fourth course late into the semester to lessen the load, but it still was overwhelming and frustrating. I knew that I was capable of doing the work (I had proven that with my strong grades the first year). I just didn’t want to do the work, and the guilt that ensued made everything worse.
Yoga has provided tons of benefits during the 11 years that I have practiced it. It stretched and strengthened my formerly tight and inflexible muscles. My joints, once inflamed by an autoimmune disease, became more limber and less painful. At the end of each session, I felt more alive, yet peaceful than I ever knew was possible. I quickly embraced a daily practice and enjoyed beginning my days with my simple asanas (postures).
Initially, I had no choice about studying Spanish in middle school. During our seventh grade year, we went on six, six-week rotations of all the related arts subjects (art, home economics, metal shop, music, Spanish, and wood shop). In eighth grade, we got to pick one of those subjects to study all year. I chose Spanish – and my love affair with the language began. I added four more years of high school Spanish to what I had begun in eighth grade.
You know what you want–-a new job, new clothes, a new boyfriend. You come up with a plan to get the object of your desire. You start saving for a down payment to purchase your dream house or condo. You sign up for an online dating service and create a wonderful profile. You head out to the store with a list of the clothes you want to buy and the amount of money you plan to spend. You are taking steps toward making your goals a reality. And then… the doubts show up.
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.