On Sunday, I sat down for a time of reflection and planning after attending my 19th college reunion. As I looked back over the month of May, I was able to celebrate many achievements. I also saw a few areas that needed some attention, mainly with lightening my workload and inviting more fun and spontaneity into my life. Then, I started dreaming and planning for the future.
I’m so excited that I get to live my dream each and every single day. I can remember the nights spent in a hospital bed wondering if I would ever be able to have a normal life after being diagnosed with lupus. I remember the early days of my yoga practice, unfurling the mat every morning, noticing where my body was tight and achy, feeling the inflammation in my joints and celebrating being able to bend my back 2 degrees closer to my legs in a seated forward fold. I remember my despair when it finally hit me that Owen was never coming back, and my life would have to begin anew without him. I remembered having an amazing job that paid well, used my talents, related to my passion and allowed me to travel—but I wasn’t happy with it.
In a moment of clarity one January day in 2009, I knew I needed to open a yoga studio. I saw how much a daily practice benefited me, and I wanted to share that with others. As soon as the thought came, fear and doubt followed. Where in Jersey City would I open a yoga studio? Where would I get the money needed to open a yoga studio? I wasn’t even certified to teach yoga. How could I think about opening a studio?
Fortunately, I was given the good advice of back mapping my dream—setting smaller, short-term goals I could obtain on the way to that Big, Hairy, Audacious Goal (BHAG, in Jim Collins’ parlance). Step one for me was a six-week yoga series focused on developing the skills to advance to a level 2 Anusara class. Then I followed it up with: moving to DC, getting certified as a yoga instructor, teaching community classes in my neighborhood, taking an entrepreneurship class, and writing a business plan. Eventually, I had done so many of the prerequisite steps that the next logical move was to open a yoga studio.
Today I get to teach yoga and manage Serenity Place DC full-time—along with coaching women through change and consulting with low-achieving, urban public schools. It’s a dream come true for me. And I’m just getting started. The dreams I have for the future are even bigger and better. They also happen to outweigh my current skills, finances, time and other resources.
After reflecting and dreaming last Sunday, I prayed. I surrendered it all to the Lord. I reminded Him—and myself—that He was and continues to be my inspiration. I wouldn’t have all these bright ideas without God. He could do anything, and I had no need to fret.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Although I shouldn’t be, today I am amazed at how quickly God got to work:
I have believed in God since I was a little girl saying my bedtime prayer, “Now I lay me down to sleep.” In the 35 years since then, I have questioned God, rebelled against Him and wandered from His teachings. But He always has been faithful to me, and He always meets my needs. Actually, he usually provides far more than I can even ask or imagine. God continually inspires me to seek Him, even when every cell in my body is filled with doubt.
Don’t let your current situation limit your dreams. The Divine (whatever you call Him) will make a way. You just need to believe, walk in faith, and enjoy the ride.
Crystal Moore began her wellness quest in 2003 after being diagnosed with lupus. Her quest has led her to embrace yoga, faith, exercise, healthy eating, and relationships. Share her journey.